Happy Halloween!

We had so much fun dressing up! The girls and I were "The Disney Princesses", Alec was a football player and Ben was Craig Sager (ESPN sports announcer). I am having technical difficulties and can't get any of my other pics to upload so all you get is this one of us girls!  Oh well, I will post more soon!

In the picture: Hannah-Belle, Libbi-Princess Aurora, Hannah's friend Madison as Silver Mist, and Me as Cinderella! 

Shot day!

So we are a little behind.... Gabi got her 4 month old shots today. She was soooo grumpy last time she had shots that I procrastinated.

She is obviously doing better this time. =)

She is mobile

Gabriella has been really moving lately. She is rolling and getting up on her knees then flopping forward. Her favorite thing is to go in reverse. She got all the way in the book shelf the other day then decided it wasn't worth trying to get out and just laid there!


So funny to watch!

Hiatus

So after more then a year away from the blog I have decided to start "flogging" again. haha We are all cheese and we know it.

Summer....

I was joking with friends in Texas before I left for Oregon that I was bulking up before I went and visited my sister because I always lose weight when I am with her. I weighed before I left and when I got home and I lost 25 lbs! Pretty impressive. Of course I cheated a little with a nursing baby but I am allowed that.

Most of our pictures are close up of the kids noses but here is one of the start of my Dad and I's lovely banana peel collection on day one of the drive to Oregon.

They did it!

The girls got their ears pierced. They did so great and are so proud of their earrings. Libbi Suzanne walks up to strangers, pushes her hair behind her ears and sticks her head out. She just stares at them, does not say a thing until I translate what the heck she is doing or they notice. It is very funny.

Of course I can't find the pictures on the computer, oh well. Maybe tomorrow.

Counting Our Blessings.

Those first few days after we found out that our boys had died the words to the primary song "Count your Blessings" kept going through my mind.

"Count your blessings, name them one by one, count your many blessings and see what God hath done".

We had made so many preparations both mentally and physically for these little angels to come, loosing them has left this strange unfinished space in our life, but... we know and have known from the beginning that this was not some grave medical error, that Heavenly Father sees the bigger picture and is taking care of them. There is peace in knowing that.

Some of our blessings: our children, each other, eternal families, extended family with beautiful talents, a ward family, being able to bury our boys where their great grandfather and great great grandfather are buried, best friends, being loved.

We want you all to know that we are doing well. I really feel like I am moving on. We have gorgeous weather and I started running again this week. Ben and I are closer, he has kept it together when I couldn't and protected me from the outside world when I wasn't brave enough to face anyone. I look at my children a little different now and I am a better mom for it.

We are so very thankful for all of the prayers that have been said in our behalf.

Thank you

Our Baby Boys- Hunter David and Reece Matthew

I know a lot of you know our sad news already, but I wanted to update the rest of you. Darci and I went to our weekly ultrasound to check on the twins, and they both have passed away. We found out last Wednesday and have spent the week doing our best to understand why, and to prepare for the upcoming delivery of the babies and the funeral in Idaho in a couple of weeks. We appreciate the well wishes and condolences, the flowers, the food, and everything else that has been both offered, and accepted. We love you and will update all of you and the blog in a few weeks. Keep us in your prayers!!

Love, the Fillmores